"I have been waiting for you here at this oasis for a long time. I have forgotten about my past, about my traditions, and the way in which men of the desert expect women to behave. Ever since I was a child, I have dreamed that the desert would bring me a wonderful present. Now, my present has arrived, and it's you." The boy wanted to take her hand. But Fatima's hands held to the handles of her jug. "You have told me about your dreams, about the old king and your treasure. And you've told me about omens. So now, I fear nothing, because it was those omens that brought you to me. And I am a part of your dream, a part of your destiny, as you call it. "That's why I want you to continue toward your goal. If you have to wait until the war is over, then wait. But if you have to go before then, go on in pursuit of your dream. The dunes are changed by the wind, but the desert never changes. That's the way it will be with our love for each other. "Maktub ," she said. "If I am really a part of your dream, you'll come back one day." The boy was sad as he left her that day. He thought of all the married shepherds he had known. They had a difficult time convincing their wives that they had to go off into distant fields. Love required them to stay with the people they loved. He told Fatima that, at their next meeting. "The desert takes our men from us, and they don't always return," she said. "We know that, and we are used to it. Those who don't return become a part of the clouds, a part of the animals that hide in the ravines and of the water that comes from the earth. They become a part of everything . . . they become the Soul of the World. "Some do come back. And then the other women are happy because they believe that their men may one day return, as well. I used to look at those women and envy them their happiness. Now, I too will be one of the women who wait. "I'm a desert woman, and I'm proud of that. I want my husband to wander as free as the wind that shapes the dunes. And, if I have to, I will accept the fact that he has become a part of the clouds, and the animals and the water of the desert."
This is the passage A had tried to quote to me a few days ago, and the epitome of what true love should be - unselfish. Placing the happiness of those you love most as a priority, and encouraging the person you love most to pursue their dreams rather than selfishly asking them to give up things and stay by your side. Fatima believes, as he does, that their destinies have been written, and if they are meant to be together, they will be. It’s a very beautiful concept.
A had said that he was a person of the mountains, and he too would support me with whatever I choose to pursue in the future.
When I get left alone for too long, my mind starts wandering and the insecurities start to creep in.
It’s been awhile since this happened.
Do you know what I’m afraid of most?
I’m afraid that one day, you’ll get tired of me. Tired of the darkness I carry inside of me, tired of all the sadness I carry. I’m afraid that I’ll suck away all your happiness, and you’ll get so sick of me you’ll just leave.
I love you. I’m so happy whenever I’m with you, but little scared too. Scared that one day, you’ll decided you no longer want me. Because I know regardless of whether you love me or not, and even if you decide to leave me in the future, I will always, always be madly in love with you."